Bleeding the Bleeder.

My thumb is on my neck

Feels it beating

As the thoughts pour in

One down and infinity for the go

As the wax pours down

Hot

It doesn't burn anymore

I make everything complicated as a mechanism of defense

to un-see what I already do

I explode

trying to digest

as I make my attempts

finding a reason to let them not take the shower

each cell of me knows

they deserve it

and they deserve that many more

but I am to stay pure

building scenarios

where I choke them in their main play tool

as if I seem to be a fool

many more of them to count down

I feel our rage

as they keep on doing the unforgiveable

our smooth glances becoming tougher

I want to burn them all down

my blood boils when I remember what they did

with all of it that I give

I close my eyes

Doesn't let me evade or un-see

how ruthless they chose to become

portraying as the angelic creatures they are

wide awake I see

the fools of the devil they are

divinely dark

leaving us divinely mad

boiling ourselves in the dirty blood we were left

we were left to bleed

as they walked away

leaving their games onto prey

leaving our souls to fade away

leaving our skin bare in the light of synthetic day

white light I pray

they hide somewhere near I swear

soaking paranoia the pain we were left to bear

sucked in

sucked out

hoping they would tuck us in

in through the night

one down

infinity to go

infinity to succeed in saving ourselves

fighting

becoming warriors on the go

our swords from the broken bones we carry

appraising we're alive in the still

posing through fakes of the smiles

either sleeping awake

or awaking sleep

the unfound is the means to evade

in my dreams I prey

I prey on the blood they have taken from my kind

I can't enjoy the ride like I used to do

in my dreams I prey

dreaming that I become the creature of their nightmare

hoping to hear their screams

and dreaming about their pain pleases me

knowing dreams are the only way

where one gets what they really deserve

a deep dive into the speaker of actuality

that's the ludicrous reality

try to evade it with all you know

still won't leave you in the dark