perceinse

I now have words for my experience. It will seem metaphysical, and probably is. The attraction results from a particle like glowing substances; it is not the id, but still has desires. More than anything, it wants to spread out, share its glow. There are colors around this particle-like thing too; sometimes it glows weak and sometimes stronger.

I sense the particle not with my eyes, and the particle I have (which may in the metaphysical dimension represent me) almost always attracts, that's how complete strangers feel a calling to share their stories with me.

The glow has a frequency and according to quantum phenomena this should be because of the distinct levels of the glow, which then lead to colors. Increased desire to share leads to brighter levels with more contrast.

Yesterday, for the first time, I managed to control my glow and made it repel the stranger's. He had a story; I wanted to preserve my own frequency.

Glow has been there for a while, 6 years now. The colors seem to imply a development of grapheme-colour synesthesia in addition to lexical gustatory.

Mimics and gestures.. they have taste and smells too; they contribute to the glow. Sometimes their frequency spreads pain and contempt. Sometimes the words disappear and gestures stay, like painting with light. Once you start perceiving this way, there is no going back.