colour₪me.

I'm gonna do better

she said

better than you've seen me before

I will not anchor

nor flesh in the wrong skin

all the mistakes I have made

for this day

the idea I was chosen to create

as I said before

I'm all-in

till the day I die

simple as that

but sometimes

I feel alienated

the selves of mine

wrong cable in the wrong wire

the roles get mixed up

unspoken liberates

so many values

pressuring the charcoal

make it something good

a useful ornament I should behind

synthesizing both sides

not waving a question behind

at other times

those feels like

survival is diffusion

else is simply a façade you create

there are so many actions

and even more inactions

unless the fear is more

the intention is to survive

my words are all around these days

I know

I do know

but I had the wrong mushroom before

Absolum seems to be not around

and the white rabbit

I lost it

this wasn't my first

there were other doors

I chose to land in between

where am I

she shouted

her voice echoed in that many colours

maybe people colour around here

instead of using words

did it mean welcome

were they happy to see me

did they colour who they are

or the colours were what they coloured

once more

so many questions

in a different dimension

maybe a mirror universe

that's how life is recently

if you're bored

you look at the mirror and voila

you can't be bored where you don't exist

right

maybe there's a warp drive around

carrying me to the time I belong

to when do I belong

if time never existed

and when it was all over

we were never really there

then what was there

if we called our illusions

full of fantasy

as the infamous reality

then was it the simulation we played

characters we mourned

how many conspiracy theories one mind could create

shading in between

believing that was the truth

there

getting the heat from below

and the icy cold above

was the one we lost

kinful obsidian we found

but

so many stories were told

we knew some were mythic

like

surreal but

none of it really existed ?